"When are you going to do something to help yourself out of this pain?”
Twenty years ago, these words hit me like a ton of bricks when my chiropractor of about a year suggested I should look a bit deeper into why I was getting debilitating migraines. This was the most earnest a-ha moment I've had in my life. It honestly NEVER occurred to me that I should take responsibility for my own pain. These words still ring true whenever I feel myself looking outside for solutions to pain or discomfort (both physical or emotional) in my life. These words sent me on a long and challenging journey of self-discovery and self-healing which eventually led me to a (virtually) pain-free life.
My journey began with yoga in the year 2000. The physical practice grounded me and helped strengthen my body and ease some of my external stressors. I experienced a reduction in migraines, but still lived in fear of when the next migraine would arrive. So, I journeyed on with the support of a yoga coach.
I began to practice the wisdom of yoga philosophy by consciously bringing it into my daily life. Practicing yoga in my daily life gave me so much more freedom and began easing my internal stressors. I was able to recognize and release myself from addictions I didn’t even know I had and confront obstacles I had been avoiding my whole life. The final ingredient for me to living a pain free life was establishing a mindfulness meditation practice. I didn’t think this path of self healing was even possible. But I learned how to notice and detect subtle ‘migraine-y’ sensations in my body early on so that I could respond and prevent the pain completely. Imagine that!!
The next significant a-ha moment occurred during a silent meditation retreat. I came to realize that I did not truly value myself. I was critical and unforgiving toward myself. It took time, guidance, and a lot of internal work until I understood the value of caring for myself. There is no amount of physical treatments and medication that can equal the power of self-compassion and self-love.
One thing is for certain, the work is never over and this practice is for life. It has taken me years to solve this pain riddle and the solution, this healing power, lies within me. It was always there, I just needed a bit of guidance and perseverance to find it.
“Meditation is nothing but a preparation to rediscover the state of bliss that is already inside you.” – Swamiji Nithyananda
I live on the beautiful Bruce Peninsula with my beautiful child and loving husband.
I teach yoga and MBSR (Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction) in a little community with the biggest heart.
I chose the name LOTUSHEART as it symbolizes my spiritual path. The lotus flower is one of the most ancient and deepest symbols of our planet. The lotus flower grows in muddy water and rises above the surface to bloom with remarkable beauty. ... Untouched by the impurity, lotus symbolizes the purity of heart and mind.
I invite you to consider how you could take the step toward self-healing. And if you feel that you need a little guidance, I would be honoured to support you through this process.